hati yang 'tergelincir'

The end of June and early July always make my feeling ups and downs...Ups with all the cheering, the laugh, the celebration....makes me downs and cry a lot since like 'someone' said before...MANJA...yes, i'm manja...since i'm quarter of century now..25 enough said. So, i got a lot of Qs...the sensitive Qs actually, the 1st was...tinggi ko berapa ek? ceh..xde soalan lain ke? dah sure2 aku nie pendek @ cute hahaha...the 2nd was...when you gonna to marry? hellooo...x nampak ke kat dahi aku nie tertampal, SINGLE...eja elok2...S.I.N.G.L.E, ok...after the Q&A's i still laughing out loud but the hurt...bukan terluka sangat namun soalan2 tue sensitif since melihat kawan2 lain mula menghulur kad kawen, menghulur anak2 diorg untuk di dukung...saya ketawa melawak, oh saya mahukan apa yg diorg ada sekarang...sedang usia melewati usia 25, saya mencemburui apa yang mereka ada...oh maaflah...entri nie mmg berbaur emosi terlampau...back to the tittle "hati yang 'tergelincir'".....yup! tergelincir dari landasan persahabatan....i've someone who i called my 'teman tapi mesra'...our relationship was the-most-complicated-thing happens to me...i know him since hingus di hidung... a lot of thing happens its grown up and at that time it was all the rainbows and butterflies...CANTIK!...then, so suddenly we lost all the colours, all the nice thing...we were close but yet seem so far to reach....until i dropped the bomb to called it quit and the case was closed...tightly. After 3 years, we seem to have everything settle and we start a need thing called 'KAWAN'....but it never seem to be that term...it always make one of us 'tergelincir'...if not him, it was me! Last thing i heard from him was MANJA, 6 months ago...oh i really miss him and i need a clean break with him if it is what him want but if he want to start a serious relationship with me, i'm more than happy to accept it...he is the reason why i can't have a true relationship with anyone...he is the reason why June and July makes me cry silently.....So, this entry actually about my heart yg tergelincir to him...

how pathetic i'm...